Sunday, May 20, 2007
@ 1:38 AM
Is it so hard to confess to her that I like her or to make her like me?
This thing has been on my mine every now and then. I can't stop thinking about her. However, now she has been like avoiding me. I really have no idea what to do. My teachers used to give in my testimonial that I am soft-hearted and that I should speak out more often. I didn't take that advice seriously then and only until recently did I realize that this are the reasons for my failure right now. I have made many friends since I stepped into this school. I did regret making some friends as they took advantage of my soft-hearted character and back-stabbed me. Because of that, this girl that I have liked had the wrong idea about me and we had some sort of cold war which lasted more than a year. It took quite a while to patch things up and be friends again. Recent events had also started to deteriorate our friendship. It has been on my mind for several years but I dared not tell her those simple few words. I have tried to do so but every time I would suddenly hold back.
A man's got to put his girl before himself.
I guess I am not ready to have this relationship. I can't commit myself to her fully. I have many things to handle that I can't even take time off for her. Perhaps it is fated that we should not be together? Still, I do hope that things can work out well between both of us.